Serious Problem of compromisation

Well, it could be easily seen by my response to the preparation of EEL205. I slept at 1:15 a.m. and woke up at 6 a.m. I started feeling 'morning sickness' . I don't know I just feel nausea tic in the morning and it's not psychological, it's for real. "Muski" was awake at 6 in the morning. I must say he does not compromise in his preparation. He does not sleep till he is fully prepared. Hey and guess what......even after watching such a great effort, I slept from 7 to 10.

I realise that I just prepare in such a way that it's always (20-50)% left. Now my dhd exam is tomorrow and I am listening to songs and writing this diary. I don't know somewhere in the heart of my brain, I am afraid because I feel I am unable to understand these abstract things and I just don't try it. I must confess that I have never made a serious attempt to understand my courses ever. I just take the 'sharan' of Vaneet Dadra, Sumeet Singh, or Rahul Goyal. Just never took things of my own. I take their understanding of the subject and it doesn't help. In examination or any test, things which are your own can help you.

Now, I have loads to do and from the heart of my mind, I do wanna try to understand and improve my performance in my own eyes. (* Note: I got 15/30 in minor1 and 9/30 in minor2 and missed two of its quizzes. and response to it is chill.....which I still think its right/ok. *)

VMC re-membrance: PHL exam held today

Today was our PHL120 exam and again did many silly mistakes whch made me remember the wording of "physics waale bhaiyya" in vmc: " Jab tak tum poori tayaari nahi kar ke jayoge, tum apne aap ko evaluate nahi kar payoge." thode marks ka kiya nahi tha, thode marks silly mistake ke karan chale gaye, kuch idhar kuch udhar. Something is wrong with the commitment. There is a lot of compromise in my study level, in my expectation of marks. I feel I am doing a lot of compromise which I should not. As said by some great person- " Ek baar compromise karna shuru kar diya, to us dheelepan ki aadat pad jaati hai, aur jo kaam ek baar reh jaye, woh saala waise ka waisa hi reh jaata hai."




Something is wrong somewhere. Don't try to recognise it. Just do your deeds and don't compromise on your level of doing it. [Well... this one is said by me.]